PREGNANCY PICTURES, A PERSONAL POST
Yes! ?This is me! Doing what James refers to as my magazine face. James and I are expecting our first child in a few weeks. As we round this corner, we?ve been overcome with the depth of love, wonder, and awe over what being a family means.
My personal posts have become more and rarer. ?This started at some point after my divorce – an experience I did not want to share via social media. ?My continued reluctance on revealing my own inner world became more apparent when I determinedly kept the news of my pregnancy off social media. ?The reasons were several. In no particular order –
My own struggle with infertility, and divorce, in my early thirties, locked me into an internalized chaos. ?During that time, it was a challenge for me to share the joys of my friends who were in successful marriages and starting families.
I was worried that there would be a perception that my business would be over, that I would not be able to continue booking jobs when clients found out I was pregnant. ?
As someone born at the tail end of Gen X, I am still uncomfortable placing information about my private life in the public sphere.?
Weeks away from the due date, I still didn?t have any more than a handful of maternity portraits and those were barely portraits being primarily early morning bathroom selfies taken with my phone. ?What was the hesitation to make a record of this time in my life? Did documenting this change make it more real? ?Or less real?
My prenatal yoga and mindfulness practice (thank you Emily Masnoon!) slowed me down to be aware of the changes that were happening, not only in my relationship to James, and my body but to my self.
This new and evolving relationship needed documentation.
On Sunday, in the midst of bedroom construction (teary goodbye to our epic open floor plan), I set up a new backdrop and began to make some self-portraits. ?I was feeling good about this moment, about my belly, about embracing this time in our lives.
James made a half-hearted attempt to get in a few images – but his awkwardness in the images prevailed and has requested those are not distributed.
It is with delight and gratitude that we welcome a new person into our growing family this year. ?James is referring to it as our New World Order (and has created this is a bold red on our calendar). ?I expect to continue my work as a portrait photographer and a handful of weddings of course.
My dear friend and new mom, Kiera whose maternity portraits I took at the end of last year, ?gifted us a book for expectant parents. ?One of the prenatal prompts for writing was What Adventures Have You Already Taken Your Child On? ?It was that compelled me to make it down to the Women?s March. ?Being there, surrounded by people who care fiercely about justice and compassion, who are ready and willing to make their lives is what I hope for this child. ?To be part of a loving community that respects the plurality of all people and all kinds of families.
Valentine?s Day is about expressing and sharing love. ?And that requires courage and fearlessness.
In that spirit, I begin this new phase and open up to our personal lives, our inner world, our private selves.
As such, I hope that your day (and week! And year!) is heartened with reminders of the courageous and loving people you have in your lives.
Happy Valentine’s Day!
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I’m so grateful that Beanie’s adoption brought you into my life. Knowing a bit more about your story and strength makes me admire you all the more. Cheers to growing bellies and families, to beloved cars that go to new families and apartments that change floor plans, and to all the new kinds of love and adventures and experiences this moment in life and the moments to come will bring. Thanks so much for sharing this personal story with such courage and humor and warmth — all things you radiate and bring out in others.
Oh!! Allana! I am so very happy for you! Many congrats to you and James. And thank you for sharing your beautiful, brave self. Much love from California!
There isn’t a word in this entire post that I don’t love. You are beautiful, your sharing is beautiful, and we just love you, Allana Rose Taranto. We await the New World Order with you and James. – Much love to you all, Ann and Tim
Everything in this post makes my heart happy. What a journey you’re on – there’s truly nothing better. So much love to you, gorgeous glamorous Mama!